I don't know what's wrong with me but something is up. I'm feeling totally discouraged with life in general right now. It seems as though there's very little celebrate or enjoy lately. Work is brutal, we're extraordinarily busy and curves keep getting thrown at us. Almost all of the things making my life miserable are completely uncontrollable and so I keep hearing my father's voice telling me not to sweat it because there's nothing I can do about it anyway. Easier said than done when you're running a department that over 700 people depend on for travel and housing. If someone comes in and doesn't have a room it's a big problem.
I'm really wondering if the experience I'm gaining here is actually worth it? Where will I be able to go after I'm finished here? I need to hang in here for at least another 7 month's, which will bring me to a year's experience, but if things continue as they are now I'll lose my mind. Not to mention my physical and emotional health.
As usual the feeling that I'm missing out on whatever "life" is weights heavily on me as well. I know I've got it good here and I really shouldn't be bitching about things because I am getting good experience and making pretty reasonable money but where will it all leave me?
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1 comment:
You're gaining experience in problem solving, supervision (esp. of difficult employees), crisis management, and how not to kill irritating people. All extremely useful and transferable stuff. Maybe instead of wondering where you will be able to go afterwards, start thinking where you WANT to go and find ways to work on the skills required.
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