I am just SO upset

I am just SO upset!  I haven’t felt this wound up for months now.  Tonight the previously mentioned Brother-in-law started asking me all these religious questions and basically told me that I was living my spiritual life all wrong.  Apparently he’d had a near death experience and since then God’s told him how he should live.  So my understanding of what God has told him is that he’s supposed to boss people around and tell them that they need to get involved with the church and to share their faith at every opportunity.  When I asked him if he’d taken the opportunity to share his faith today he tried to change the subject.  When I persisted he told me that God hadn’t pointed out an opportunity today, to which I replied that maybe waiting on God wasn’t the right thing to do maybe he was supposed to create opportunities!  Well he just changed the subject again and started talking about how God was using him to direct people towards Ministry opportunities where they would be used.  To which I really wanted to say “isn’t it wonderful that like many other Canadian public school teachers God has appointed you to be a delegater and task setter as opposed to someone who actually has to get their hands dirty in the undesirable tasks of witnessing and ministering to people!  If only I was so blessed.”  That’s what I really wanted to say.  Instead I held my tongue and swore at him in my mind.  Later The Baron commended me for my restraint but I don’t know how much more restraint I can show with this guy.  Even though staying with The Baron is temporary this is still my home at the moment and having this Ass come into my home and attacking me makes me incredibly angry.

The next thing that pissed me off is that after being promised the new truck for work for months now I have been told that someone else is going to have it till the end of this month!  I AM SO FUCKING ANGRY ABOUT THIS IT’S NOT EVEN RATIONAL!  I don’t know why but having the new truck means a lot to me.  It could be the fact that for the first two months of this job I was driving around in the oldest truck in the fleet and making due.  It could also be the fact that after all the shitty years of doing this job and NEVER getting the new truck I feel that it’s due to me this time.  Finally it could just be the fact that I was led on to believe that I would be getting it and there’s no FUCKING reason that they would give it to the employee they did give it to as she’s leaving the company at the end of the month anyway (I’m not mad at her in the slightest because she even called me today and asked why she still had the truck when she knew that I was supposed to be getting it and was looking forward to it)!  I’m SO angry about this I want to quit right now.  Unfortunately I have responsibilities that don’t allow that.  ARGH!  SO FRUSTERATED!