Hey, hey! Sorry to have kept you hanging with that last post. The next morning I woke up feeling much better. I'm still having some struggles though with self-esteem and just feeling low in general. I have gone to the naturalpath again just a few days ago and my mood is great though. It's interesting how sometimes your feeling great emotionally but mentally your just not all quite where your emotions dictate would be a logical place. I would assume that both mental and emotional health should be interconnected but that doesn't always seem to be the case. Regardless I'm bouncy and happy.

I finally met with the other counsellor that I wanted to try and I think I've got a match. He's an older gentleman who I just immediately felt at ease with. Really nice guy and he's expressed his willingness to walk with me through whatever comes up in the next while. I was really releaved that he is willing to muddle through things with me at the beginning at least. I don't really have any clear / set goals that I want to achieve through this counselling process aside from finding out who I am. Who is me, what are my deeply held beliefs, what makes me act and re-act the way that I do? Just talking to him already he made a very interesting observation, it's quite possible that by delving into homosexuality I was searching more for the relationships it "promised" than the physical aspects. Interesting.

Well it's Saturday morning and I just got back from the gym. I don't know if I mentioned here before or not but I've been going to the gym 6 days a week for a little over a month now. I'm loving it and it's defienetly helping me have a better outlook on life. Thanks to Janet's advice I go to the gym straigh from work now and then go home. If I go straight home with the intention of going to the gym later... well it just doesn't happen. Good thing I don't have a life anyway!

Have a Great Day! Mine's looking to be.

Weather report for wifey:

Clear Sunny approximately +12C. It's been like this for weeks now with the odd day of rain which helps settle the dust.