Well I've figured it out. The only thing harder than telling someone that your gay is telling them that you hate being gay, don't see a future in it, and are going to be exploring different areas of counselling to see how and if it is just a choice and way of thinking that can be reversed. To tell you the truth I'm terrified about this. Mostly I'm scared about what those close to me will say. Most of them believe that this is not something you can change and I'm not sure how supportive of this they will be. I do have to say this though that if they arn't supportive... or at least give me the benefit of the doubt... well I won't be seeing them much more. This is extremely important to me and even if it doesn't end up working out then at least I'll be sure.

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