Sitting here feeling strange. It finally sunk into me after a long conversation with Janet that my relationship with Jake is not right. The fact that the boy has told me he loves me a number of times and insists that I love him even though I deny it is the first sign. The second sign is that I'm not attracted to him. The third sign is that I get drunk most of the time when he is around, I know not a healthy way of dealing with it but whatever. Finally we all went to a movie tonight and I just didn't want him there. For someone that your supposed to care about and want to be with I don't think this is normal. How on earth did I end up with this guy who fell completely in love with me as the first guy I ever dated. Ahhhhh! I now have to be ready to break his heart. Janet reminded me that I am perfectly capable of being an ass-hole and that I had better do it soon. Peter told me that from his experience any guy who tells you that they love you within the first few months of being together probably has some major issues of their own. I agree.