Lots has gone on in the last week or more since I've written but it's mostly all good.

My time at my current store is winding down and I'll only be there for the next two weeks. I have essentially relinquished control of Origins to another in order for the Department Manager to see if this lady has what it takes to run the counter effectively. So I'm sort of floating at the moment just racing around trying to get last minute things done for my program. I really need to start work on my Major Presentation which goes over all of my activities and what I have learned in the last few months while at this store for some of the Company's top executives. I used to think that it was quite a big deal to be paraded around in front of these people but now... not so much. One of them seems to be out to get me as well, which is always fun. She's the bitch that asked me if I would 'bet my paycheck' on the final financial results for my area during one of her visits. The last time that she was in she "warned" me that she was going to be prepared with LOTS of questions about why the line was down 25% (considering this was the average for the line across the company I'm not all that worried about it).

Personally things are going ok. Mom and Dad are coming down to Van next week and obviously want to see me. It think it's going to be an interesting visit based on what I mentioned in my last post. So I'll be having lunch with Dad on Monday.

I finally decided to seriously take some steps about getting myself into counselling. I contacted an agency today and booked an appointment. What I want to accomplish through this is hopefully finding a place where my mind is at peace with everything that is going on in my life right now. Finding a way to deal with the constant changes, in my job, my emotional state, and state of mind would be very helpful. I am especially hopeful that I will be able to come to grips with my double-mindedness regarding relgion and my feelings of betrayal by organized religion. Why is it that I am still, even after all this time, so wound up in religious thoughts?

Jake and I are back on again. Sort of. I'm trying to navigate my way through this 'relationship' and ensure that minimal amounts of damage are done to either of us. I find it tough to deal with as Jake displays a depth of emotion for me that I cannot currently return. I believe that when I start talking with someone about this much light will be shed (sp?).

Life continues on as it always has and will. The headache is a dull throb right now as opposed to a ripping migrane and for that I am thankful.