I read an interesting chapter in Blue Like Jazz, this book that my church small group is reading, that was about Grace today. I have to say that the timing was pretty good for me. Basically the author wrote about how he was once a legalist, which I have been, and that it was one of the hardest things for him to come out of. Understanding that God's grace is free and available for all is a concept that I have been grappling with for years. I am so full of pride that I don't want anyone, least of all God to give me anything for free. I can do it and get it through my own hard work. Damned if I'm going to be in someone's debt for anything that I have or accomplish. These are the thoughts that have caused me much anguish over the years. I know that I am most comfortable being a legalist and that my very nature works the best while following legalistic principles. Coming to an understanding of Grace is going to be a long an tough process that I can only be lead through. I don't believe that there is ever going to be a way for me to work towards this understanding. I hope this post makes sense because I'm writing very off the top.

I just got back from seeing 'Kill Bill II' which was brilliant. It is totally different than Volume I, which was terrific, so I am completely satisfied with how these movies turned out.

Mood: Content
Music: Classical Yo-Yo