I feel freaked. I don't know how to explain it any better than that. I really feel like I did the day that I got drunk, and I almost want to again. I realize fully now that the counseling sessions are causing me a great deal of emotional stress. Unfortunatly even though it's bad stress I believe the end result will be reasonable. I have discovered a great deal about myself today that I need to change and will have to think about. The only problem is that I have so much to do that I just can't seem to get around to it. I have to go to my job interview now.