Well I'm back at Horizon and it was total mayhem tonight! So glad to be back where I belong :) It sounds like a bunch of things that should have happend... didn't, while I was gone. So it's going to be interesting to see what's actually been happening here.

I ended up talking to my Counsellor last night for a while. I called him because of the depression etc, I'd been feeling while home and while I had thoughts on it I couldn't figure out what was causing it. Essentially we figure that it all boils down to the fact that my life is no longer in Vernon at all so when I'm there it's really hard to feel good about myself. Essentially it's things like the fact that here at site I'm always busy and I'm on a career path. When I go home I meet people and they ask where I live and I say "with my parents". The fact that home never really changes significantly makes it easy to slip back into all those destructive patterns and ways of thinking that we had growning up. So next time before I head home I'm going to try and prepare myself for it more. I'm exactly sure what that looks like or means but I'm going to try and figure it out.

I don't think I remembered to mention it but next turnaround I'm planning on going to Vancouver for the weekend. I believe the date I'll be heading down is the 13th which is a Friday and staying with Marcie and Frank for the weekend leaving Sunday or Monday. Hope to see everyone down there if possible.

Anyway it's off to bed for me.

Night!