Well I got a hold of one of my Bosses by phone and told him of the opportunity that had come my way and that I would really like to pursue it. He sounded positive about the whole thing and I'm somewhat optimistic.

Keep your fingers crossed for me!

I talked to the other company again and damn do I want that job. Let's just say the salary is well over $20,000 more than my current rate. Not to mention an executive room at one of the other lodges off site which means I would have a private bathroom and sitting area. Now all I have to do is talk to Big Boss and get his blessing. There's a stupid site rule here that people can't go from one company to another within 90 days, but if the Labour Relations department doesn't hear about it, in other words no one bitches, they don't care. I originally wanted to wait until Big Boss was back on site to talk to him but time is of the essence so I've sent him an e-mail requesting that he call me tonight. Here's hopeing things go well.

I sent my resume to the other company last night at around 7pm. This morning at 715am they called. Because of a site rule forbidding companies from stealing other company's workers I'm going to have to go to the Big Boss and ask him for a release in order to persue this other position. That actually works out really well for me as I figure that I hold a lot of cards in this situation. Issues that I'll bring up are things such as: being paid marginally more than the people I direct to do very little, still not having a letter of offer or employment contract of any kind, insane hours, trying to do a job with no supplies, getting sent home for doing my job, having to pay for my own benefits, and there are other things I'm sure I'll think about by the time Big Boss get's back on site. Wish me luck, if things go well, things will get better or I'll be working for the other company soon. If things don't go well nothing will change.

Maybe it's time for a change. Today was extremely rough, I'm trying to hold a fairly large scale operation together without the right people or tools. I'm frusterated and feel like I'm spinning my wheels. I forwarded my resume to the company that asked me to the other night. It'll all likely be more of the same but I believe the pay will be better...

I can't sleep. So what am I doing? I'm moving around my room trying to make as much noise as I can in order to wake the moron in the room next door up. Every friggin morning he wakes me up around 5AM by moving around slamming drawers, dropping his boots, doing whatever it is that moron's do in the morning. Hell this guy probably shaves loud! Unfortunately as far as I can tell he's not waking up from my loudness. Sometimes life is just so unfair.

The weather up here is turning for the better. Today it's 11C which is really quite nice. Today I slept through both of my alarms and didn't wake up until the cleaning lady was knocking on the door at 10! Happily I didn't have anything that I had to do so everythings good.

One of my new co-workers is from New Zealand and is a really nice guy. Trouble is I'm feeling somewhat threatened by him. He's extremely quick and quite smart as well. I'm his direct Supervisor and it's good to finally have someone with an ounce of sense to work with. Unfotunately this feeling that I have that he could walk in and take over all that I've worked so hard at building this past year is somewhat disconcerting. I'm trying to use his skills and knowledge to our advantage to make the operation run better and so far its freed up a lot of my time which is nice. Now it's just a matter of keeping him busy and productive so he doesn't get board.

Essentially I'm procrastinating right now because I should be working on my first assignment for my Human Resources course but it's been somewhat tough to get into. The course itself is very interesting it's the Essay's that I'll have to get used to writing again.

After a somewhat tough week, my ego got a real boost today. I was approached by a lady, that I talk to every once in a while, from one of the large companies on site and she asked me to apply for a job. The job is essentially what I was doing with my last company only for a hell of a lot more money. Pretty exciting I think. Even though I'm thinking about applying for it I don't think that I'd leave my present situation. Big Boss has been so good to me and has promised me he'd get me in with the oil company eventually that I think it would be prudent to stay where I am for a while. I know it's going to take Big Boss a while to get me on because of politics in the oil company so by passing on this new opportunity I could be waiting for quite a while but I think it would be worth it. Considering the fact that I want my resume to stop reflecting the insane amounts of company jumping that I've been doing lately staying put is probably a good idea.

Well I'm back at Horizon and it was total mayhem tonight! So glad to be back where I belong :) It sounds like a bunch of things that should have happend... didn't, while I was gone. So it's going to be interesting to see what's actually been happening here.

I ended up talking to my Counsellor last night for a while. I called him because of the depression etc, I'd been feeling while home and while I had thoughts on it I couldn't figure out what was causing it. Essentially we figure that it all boils down to the fact that my life is no longer in Vernon at all so when I'm there it's really hard to feel good about myself. Essentially it's things like the fact that here at site I'm always busy and I'm on a career path. When I go home I meet people and they ask where I live and I say "with my parents". The fact that home never really changes significantly makes it easy to slip back into all those destructive patterns and ways of thinking that we had growning up. So next time before I head home I'm going to try and prepare myself for it more. I'm exactly sure what that looks like or means but I'm going to try and figure it out.

I don't think I remembered to mention it but next turnaround I'm planning on going to Vancouver for the weekend. I believe the date I'll be heading down is the 13th which is a Friday and staying with Marcie and Frank for the weekend leaving Sunday or Monday. Hope to see everyone down there if possible.

Anyway it's off to bed for me.

Night!

I went to Kelowna tonight and went to a wrap up for one of Janet's sports teams. Her company puts on sports events and at the end of every season (?) she does an event. Well this event happened to be at 'Yuk Yuks' comedy club. Wish I could say the comedians were funny...

Had a good time overall but for some reason I'm just not doing well. Just down in the dumps. Hopefully it'll get better once I get back to work. I'm not sure if the issue is mental, emotional, or physical. Usually I can tell right away but this time I can't seem to put my finger on it. Hopefully it'll clear itself up soon.

Well I'm bored. Because I'm bored I'm a little bit depressed. I really should be working on my first assignment for my course but I just can't seem to get up the desire to do that, or anything for that matter. It's kind of sick but I'm ready to go back to work now.

You are looking at my latest impulse purchase. Yep, today I decided while walking out to the Focus that he would look really good with a new pair of shoes. The following is what I came up with. While yes, this was an impulse purchase in some respects I have been searching for a set of rims since before Christmas. Today I just happened to decide that something actually had to be done about it. I'm really excited about these rims. They're 17 inchers and they're called Hyper Black, which means that in direct sunlight or light they're silver, in the dark they're black. Much like my blue car is blue during the day and black at night! They're going to look SO SWEET!

Other than that I've been home for a while hemorahging money as usual. Everytime I leave the house it costs me $400 (or in the case of today substantially more) but hey, that's what I'm working for right...

After reviewing the housing prices around here I've decided to hold off slightly till I have at least $20,000 to use as a down payment. That's what you're allowed to take our of your RRSP's tax free to use for the first time home buyers plan. So another few months and I could do it. Now it's just a matter of finding something that I can acceptably call home. I'm kind of picky you know!

What a wild day. I'm completely exhausted. I had a wicked headache all day that finally went away when I had a 20 minute nap earlier. We have over 500 people go through the airport today which involved about 9 different planes. Trying to keep them all straight was wild. Here's hoping everyone got to where they were supposed to!

Working on week four up here and I'm starting to lose it. I've started to lose the proper perspective that's needed to susvive up here. All the little things are starting to get to me as opposed to just rolling off my back like they should be. Unfortunately the big things are starting to get to me to. The animals (the workers) are starting to get to me with their vileness. One of my staff members is extremely difficult to deal with and becoming increasingly more so as the days go on and I lose more of my patience. Finally I just don't have the time to deal with what I need to or to take care of myself properly. The count-down is on 7 more days to go!

I just finished watching the last episode of The OC and I have to say that even though this last season hasn't been all that great I am seriously going to miss the show. Sad as that is. Throughout the last four years I've watched all the insanity and crazyness the show had to offer and I loved it. Here's hoping that I'll either find another show I enjoy as much or get a life!

I'm terribly excited! Big Boss outlined some of his thoughts on what he is "grooming" me for today and I'm very happy with where I see things going for me up here. Sooner or later I'll be out of the stupid companies grasp and working as an actual employee of the oil company. Things are looking bright and I'm happy with it.

On another subject I've started looking at real estate in the Valley. At this point I figure that it'd be the smartest investment for me. We'll see though...