Another year of Christmas revelry has come and gone. This year's Christmas was very good, aside from Sister having to stay at camp, and went really quickly. Tomorrow night is New Years Eve and I'm looking forward to a bit of fun. I'll be spending the first bit of the evening with J and a number of her friends then moving on over to The Baron's place of residence where I will ring in the New Year with my friends.

Sadly I have to be on a plane headed back to camp at 1030 on Jan 1 (which I'm really not happy about) but I am looking forward to getting back to work. It will be nice to get back into the swing of things. It always amazes me that after just a few days off I'm ready to go back to work again. I think this may be a seriouse psychological problem...

Finally I got a wicked digital camera for Christmas this year and I've been spending some time learning how to use it; so I am excited to say that I will likely be incorporating more pictures into my blog.

Until 2007 (unless I decide to post something tomorrow)!

Yet again I find myself working up the the very bitter end of the Holidays. When I was in Retail this made sense and unfortunately I had to work Boxing Day and a bunch of the days in between as well. Now that I'm in the aviation industry I again find that I'm in the middle of a crazy busy time of year.

Yesterday the crew out here moved over 500 people. This was no small accomplishment but I'm proud to say that everything went really well. Aside from the fact that I woke up this morning feeling like I've been hit by a truck everything's good.

I'm really looking forward to getting out of here now. As things are finally starting to wind down I'm looking forward to the chance to just collapse for a while. Considering I'm flying out of here on Christmas Eve and going directly from the airport in Calgary to the first of three family dinners over the course of three days I don't think I'm going to be able relax until I get back to Vernon. Vernon's looking to be quite enjoyable as well as Raph and Wifey are going to be there and I'm really looking forward to some 'do nothing' time with them.

New Years this year has been somewhat subdued for me already because of the fact that I'm flying back to this lovely place on Jan. 1st at 10:30 in the morning. That means I get to spend my Birthday in camp this year to :(

All in all I should count myself lucky that I don't have to spend both Christmas and New Years here like Sister does.

Well until I get a chance to post again, Merry Christmas Everyone!

I ate so much chocolate today that I was practically vibrating by the time I left work. That's one nice thing about Christmas is all the great chocolate that people just give away... now if I can only convince them to give away red wine to go with it...

The past week or so has been excruciating and I didn't know why. It was just about all I could do to drag myself back to my room every night without wanting to cry. Then once I was back in my room the extreme weight of depression hit me and I just wanted to cease to exist. As this hasn't happened to me in quite a long time I was very unhappy and couldn't figure out what was going on. Then while talking to my Mother the other day I complained that I suspected the new naturopathic medicines I was taking may have something to do with it. Mom suggested that I stop taking them for a while and see what happened. Well I stopped taking them today and while I woke up feeling terrible around 2PM something switched and suddenly I was back to my normal self. It's really scary to me how these kinds of things can effect me so strongly but what's even more scary is the people out there who don't know that they are succeptible to this kind of thing and carry on as best they can every single day. I guess this is a good reminder for me to be more sensitive to the people around me and to keep remembering that as incredibly stupid as many of them are... some of them may not be able to help parts of their stupidity or crankiness.

I can hardly believe it but Blogger tells me that this is my 700th post! It's really hard to believe that 700 posts ago I started this blog as a class project. Since then it's followed my life through some extream highs and some seriously low, low's. In school I'd never really taken a major interest in writing and I think that's mostly because of the whole pen and paper thing. When I'm typing things are just so much easier. Here's to Blogger! Thanks for making this such an easy process and never telling me to stop writing.

This is Hilarious! I'm off to evade my army of screaming lovers now! Thanks Wifey great diversion for a Saturday.

I have climbed highest mountain
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you

I have run
I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
These city walls
Only to be with you

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in her fingertips
It burned like fire

This burning desire
I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night

I was cold as a stone

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

I believe in the kingdom come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
Bleed into one
Well yes I'm still running

You broke the bonds and you
Loosed the chains
Carried the cross
Of my shame
Of my shame

You know I believed it
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for...

-U2

No matter what path in life one takes they're bound to find some aspect of their being that doesn't match up with how they'd like to see it. What is an ideal life? Is there such thing as a balanced life?

As my Dad drove me to the airport yesterday we were discussing how some of the concerns and issues that my current living and working situation was bringing about. Concerns like 'Am I missing out on life?', 'Are other people moving furthur ahead in their careers by being in a city?', 'I don't "like" living where I do right now so will the sacrifice payoff?', 'When will I be able to live the lifestyle that I want to at some point in life?'

I suppose that when I look at these questions the answer really boils down to time. How long am I willing to put in up here? At what point do I just decide that the money isn't worth what I'm missing out on. When do I decide that I've got enough "experience" to move on to another career somewhere else? Will I be able to move to another career once I leave here or will this place have left an indellible mark on my psyche that follows me around haunting me for the rest of my life.

I deposited the largest paycheck of my life today. I wish I could report that it felt great and all those things that people are supposed to say but overall I felt... not so much. It's really weird but the old saying is true, "Money isn't important until you don't have any". I just never thought I'd be saying that...

An ideal life is really measured by the thoughts of the person looking for it. As for whether an ideal life is balanced... I think that's a pipe dream. There's no such thing as in ideal life let alone a balanced life.

I've been home for seven days now and I leave to go back to camp tomorrow. Overall I have to say that I'm already looking forward to going back as there's just not much to do here when I'm home. I've managed to take some inspiration from Raph and Wifey this time though and I spent most of Saturday and all of Sunday doing nothing. The fact that I've picked up a cold while home has likely helped in curbing my need to do anything as well.

As usual I've been hemorraghing money since I got back. There are just so many things to do in a couple days that people with 'normal' lives can spread out over the course of a month or more that I have to do in a compressed time. Things like servicing and gettting the car ready for winter (even though I'll likely only drive it for 3 weeks of actual winter driving), going to the chiropracters, stocking up on toiletries (this is stunningly quite expensive) and other such things have kept me quite busy. Trying to see the few friends that I still have here also takes up a bit of time.

All in all this has been a good, if not somewhat boring, time at home. After being at camp for 34 days though I think it's just what the Doctor ordered. Actually it almost is, I went to the Naturalpath two days ago and he told me my body was at the point of exhaustion. Nervous system friend and all that, of course the road to recovery cost a disgusting amount of money but I paid it and hopefully I'll start to feel a little peppier soon.