Emotions Suck

It’s weird, there are people home that I really want to see and spend time with but I just find it to be incredibly emotionally taxing.  Matthew called tonight and though I’ve been dying to talk to him I just wasn’t in the right place mentally to be able to have a conversation.  Same with Raphael when he’s around.  Why am I so stressed by this?  I’m just going to chalk it up to an insane amount of change again and a seeming inability to handle it right now.