After an almost euphoric start to the day because I was foolishly so enamoured with thoughts of where the events of last night could / can go I slowly started coming back to earth. Discussing the whole ‘Beautiful girl situation’ with a girlfriend she very much made me aware of the fact that The Girl is probably on the rebound and is probably not looking at our situation the way that I am. As frustrating as this is to me I recognize that it’s likely true and I’m somewhat resigned to that fact. At the same time I’m questioning myself as to whether I’m just avoiding a situation because I’m scared of it (fear, always fear, what is it with me?). What to do, what to do?
Overall I’m very happy I’m not in the same frame of mind I was last year on this date. Actually I’m counting this as a major milestone that I don’t feel the same emptiness that used to be so prevalent in my life. I’ve found so much more within me that keeps me strong. I guess I have slain a number of dragons in the past year.
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