Slave Lake III

October 24, 2005

I’m finally leaving Slave Lake.  Not a moment to soon either as far as I’m concerned.  I woke up feeling pretty crappy today but still better than I felt yesterday which was just unreal.  Rarely do I get headaches like I had all day yesterday, it was so bad my stomach was even upset.  So of course I tried everything in terms of drugs that I carry with me but to no avail.  Next was a cup of coffee and wouldn’t you know it the headache subsided greatly.  Now the problem was that I was up till about 1130, which didn’t make me all that happy as I was exhausted.   This whole week I’ve looked like crap because of the terrible quality of sleep I’ve been getting.  Even using the substantial amount of skin care products that I lug around with me everywhere hasn’t helped to subside the dark circles and puffiness under my eyes (although it does sooth them).  Yes, I’m a certifiable mess, it’s only Monday and already I’m longing for the weekend.

Today marks the first day of the second week of my trip.  Only three more weeks to go and even though this week had a few hitches (mostly sleep related) overall everything has gone superbly.  No major problems or anything to complain about.  I’m almost sorry about that.

It’s been months now since I’ve seen my counsellor.  I did talk to him on the phone about 4 weeks ago but as for actually being in his office it’s been a while.  I’m looking forward to the opportunity but I really feel fine even though I haven’t seen him for such a long time.  I really feel that’s a significant milestone.  That and the fact that I don’t freak out as much anymore on the way I think things are ‘supposed’ to be.  Rather I’m generally pretty content to let things ride.  The old Popeye adage “I am who I am” is actually starting to make sense to me but more importantly it’s starting to mean something.