Ok, things with Ruth are good again. I'm uber sad that she is leaving and in a strange way I feel abandoned. Probably because I'm the only one here. There's just been way to much emotion going through my system this week. To much stuff for me to process and handle all at once. I hate the cyclical nature of life. You have a period of excellent time where everything goes right and your happy and such... and then the inevitable crash. I think the crashes are finally starting to shorten and seem to be much more infrequent but they're still there and hard to take. I'm going to bed.