Leduc

October 30, 2005

Ok, I’m starting to feel a little bit crazy.  Last night I was sitting watching TV on my own and it just hit me that I was tired, lonely and frustrated.  As decent as this trip has been I’m looking forward to it being done now more than ever.  Kind of stupid as it’s going to be this last leg of the trip that’s going to involve more friends and people that I haven’t seen in a long time.  Don’t get me wrong I’m looking forward to seeing them but even though I’ve been able to stay with relatives I’m ready to go home.  Weird actually as once I’m home I’m sure I’ll be tired of being there.  Am I the only one who has this stunted form of wanderlust?  I love travelling and going to different cities and when I’m home I want to leave but when I’ve left I want to go home.

Spent yesterday working on the feasibility study for Narcissus I ended up spending way more time defining who my customers were than I originally thought I would.  Working through this feasibility study keeps bringing up doubts I wasn’t expecting but so far nothing has popped up and told me it won’t work.  I’m still waiting for that.

As I contemplate going into business for myself I know more and more that it’s the right thing for me to do.  I’m just so disinterested in doing anything else.  Anything I can actually see myself doing I don’t seem to be qualified for and anything that I’m qualified for I can’t seem to get because of the competition.  Although to be fair I haven’t even bothered trying to get anything in the recent past.

Today I’m going to visit a friend from Prairie who’s living in Wetaskskiwin.  Looking at the lives of some of my friends I’m frankly relieved that I don’t have his life.  Married and has a child, living with the in-laws and being supported by his wife as he stays home with the kid.  Ugh just not what I’d want although I’m thrilled that he seems very happy about it.  Either way I’m looking forward to visiting with him as we were really close.