Well I'm back in Van and my trip home was good. Very uneventful and very quite exactly how I wanted it to be. It's odd though how every one of the books that I'm reading right now tells me that it can be traumatic to go back home for people dealing with the issues I'm dealing with and as far as I can tell they're right. Christmas was probably one of the most traumatic experiences I've ever had and from the stories that I hear from some of my friends and acquaintances I would have to say it is true... homosexuals don't like being in their childhood homes. So I was thrilled to come back here.

Today was basically a waste of a day again. Well that's how my days are feeling anyway because looking for jobs now a days is definitely not what I think it used to be. I think there's this romantic vision most people have, I think, of looking for a job involving a folded up newspaper scribbled all over in red pen at a cheap coffee joint. Now a days everything's done on the internet. Employers don't want to have anything to do with you if you walk into their office and ask to submit a resume. Most of the time it just goes straight to the receptionist who then passes it on. At least with e-mail your resume should be going to the person who is actually going to make a decision.

Being that I have been applying mostly with recruiters, which seems to be about the only option available at most job finding related web-sites, I would have thought I would have had more responses by now. True it's only the second Monday after a short week but I'm feeling a little down. I really hope that the position I met with the recruiter for last week works out. The recruiter figured the company would be calling me either today or tomorrow. Well I didn't hear from them today so that leaves tomorrow.

Tomorrow I'm going for supper with the Baroness. It's been a long time since I've seen her, indeed I believe the last time I saw her was just after Rapheal's wedding. Unfortunately the last number of times that I've seen her I've been rather tense. But having gone through some rather intense situations this last year I feel as though I maybe can relate a bit better with her now so I'm hoping that conversation during supper will be good.