Well after an exhausting number of days that were very busy Rapheal left this morning. It was good to see him but I wish I would have had more time for us to just sit and visit. With his visiting schedule and my work events we didn't really get to visit for all that long. I am glad that I got to see him and the Answer Man anyway.

Do you ever feel one dementional? I do much of the time lately. When people ask me what I do when I'm not working my inevitable response has been that I sleep. Sad really. I need to find other things to do after work... or at least when I'm not working.

I'm going to look into finding a counselor down here. I've been feeling really out of sorts lately and I've been extremely moody lately, to the detriment of those around me, and I hate to say it but I think that my bad moods have correlated with the beginning of my relationship with Jack. I honestly think that I may actively be trying to push him away. Either way I'm very frustrated and it would probably do me some good to talk to someone.