Well I had a reality check today that wasn't too pleasant. It has become glaringly apparent that I am going to have to start spending more than the current 9.5 hours a day at work from now on. The work load in my department along with the extra courses that are expected of me as well as the extra responsibilities that are expected are not going to happen if I leave when I'm "supposed" to everyday. I'm seriously thinking tonight about whether this company really is the place for me. If the company expects me to work that much for so little pay then why in hell don't I just quit and go start my own company. The potential that this is all just part of a learning curve is foremost in my mind as well but I'm not sure if the situation will ever change. Argh! I'm just so frustrated with things right now. If this is really what life is supposed to be all about then I'm not sure that I like it all that much.
I love going into the store everyday and I enjoy the work that I'm doing for the most part but at the same time I desire a level of balance between the two that I'm not really sure exists. It's entirely plausible that for the rest of the training program I'll be working my ass off and that as soon as the program is done I'll continue doing that. It's really a good thing that I don't have a family or anything because I don't know how people with families do this. Balance... how to achieve balance. That is the question of the evening.
2 comments:
Ah, the working hours of the corporate worlds claim another victim.
I really hope you do find this balance, and good luck to you. The biggest complaint Stuffy, at least the one I hear most often, about the atmosphere at her work is the insane demands on time that the managers face. She has one coworker that actually tries to fight against the grain, and it gets him the reputation of not being a hard worker. Sucks.
Don't work yourself into the ground or a drunken stupor, excepting weekend evenings of course.
-Raphael
I was all set to mention the situation at my work but I see Raphael has done it for me. I think the search for balance starts with setting limits. Saying "This is how much I'm willing to put in, and that's all" is not the easiest thing to do in a training situation, though.
If I were you, I'd start vetting out what the managers make vs how much they work. That way, you can start scoping out post-training opportunities that are more to your liking if balance is not encouraged at your company.
I know my company only seems to reward those nutjobs who practically sleep under their desks and I think it's terrible HR: you're almost asking for burnout among your key people.
Oooh! Supper!
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