Friday night. Sitting in my living room at the computer. Saw a movie with friends, played pool, now nothing. MuchMusic is on, some blonde bastard hollering. Trying to psyche myself up for tomorrow and the mountains of homework. Not really mountains I just like to stress myself out.

I need to stretch myself more. I wonder do all Christians (or those that think they are) have to deal with the double-mindedness that I experience? I want to be consistent. I don't think that I am most of the time though. The same mouth that I sing praises to God with I profusely swear with. What's up with that. I hate the fact that I can't seem to find a direction in life that I feel comfortable with. Christianity is boring and anything else is too 'pagan'. Oh the double mindedness of me.